Archive for June, 2012


Was it supposed to affect me? the secret I thought I always knew. Maybe I am too afraid to embrace the truth or I just like embracing the world in my own ways.. my old selfish ways. Oh the imagination! you feel almost supernatural when you can control the world around you. The broken pictures are sometimes better than reality. They signify your broken dreams, or do they? I have way too many dreams compressed in a miniature nano-sphere. Even if some get crushed, I have the rest to hold myself. WOW. I AM STRONG.

Returning back to the cipher…the enigma. It is pretty difficult for me to discover new things about it when I thought I knew better. I wish I did. What I want is so different from what I have chosen for me. And honestly it is more difficult to occult both of these from my heart. Wants can be tarnished, but your fate… more precisely the destiny you have chosen for yourself. My want will always be there with me, no matter what. And honestly be there for me. It just cannot be my destiny as it is not preordained just serendipity, A spontaneous good luck. The world is such a mess and I for once would want it to function efficiently. I confine in me secrets, confusions, dream, premonitions- Not necessarily the ones which belong to me, but ones which have links with mine. Like a magical bond, which only stronger with increasing ciphers and mysteries. Ones which now I protect, like a knight in a shining armor, actually more like a war princess. It is not only about the trust which I find most essential to store, but also I need a comrade. This comrade has been through rough patches and golden sunshine. Yes I trust this comrade more than many other minions. But I still couldn’t confide this one cipher…this one enigma. I wish I could confide. It has been eating me away gradually. I cant speak to anyone thus I shall not. But deep inside everyone knows…or maybe they think they do. The enigma is getting more mysterious as time goes by.


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